Life Lately.

Today I went to Josh's friend's photography display at this small coffee shop. There was also free wine tasting [which wasn't the best wine, haha]. But, it was still good to catch up with people and socialize. I started walking around by myself and looking at the different pictures. They were beautiful. Dan Smyth, who was the photographer, had gone to India and documented his trip with his camera. I love pictures of random people because I like to look into the people's eyes and get a feel for how they were feeling at that moment. Some may consider that creepy or weird, but I think it is so interesting. You just get this feeling inside of you that almost allows you to enter that person's life for a minute. Sometimes it's sorrow and sometimes it's joy. It all depends. The one thing I do know is that it makes me realize how much I long to travel and how much I long for missions. I've read through my posts on here recently and I am realizing that almost every time I write the subject of missions comes up. My heart just calls out for that so much. Maybe that's a sign of where I'll end up in a few years.

Josh ended up asking me what I thought I'd be doing after college. That is a difficult question. I've been thinking about that a lot lately and I am almost positive that it will be one of three things. Either And Then There Was Love, missions, or the peace corps. I can't help but picture myself anywhere else other than one of those three places. I know that last time I wrote I said that only two things were on my mind lately, and that still holds true. The other thing that I didn't mention is Katie. And that still hasn't changed. Some may not understand our relationship. I don't blame them. I barely do. Haha. But, there is something really special about this girl. And I don't want to let her go. Our thoughts and ideas and future plans and longings... it all just matches up so beautifully. Even if I am a hundred thousand miles away at the moment and even if we would be considered "long distance" for the next year. I think that this feeling inside of me is worth fighting for. It all matches up too well. And I've been praying hardcore about it lately and I feel stronger and stronger about it. And my mom, dad, and sister, who are the three most important people in my life have been encouraging me left and right to go for this. And that makes me even more confident because they are smart people and they know what they are talking about for the most part. I trust them and love them more than anyone. So, to have their approval, and even their encouragement, is huge for me. Katie told me the other day that she's never felt more alive. And I feel that is such a good way to put it. Again, I know that most people don't understand the situation, but what Katie said is exactly how I feel and I believe that that alone is enough to keep exploring.

I also drove back from this coffee shop alone since Josh went to his friend Luke's house after. And I ended up just talking out loud with God on the way back. If anybody looked in my car during the drive, they probably thought I was a little crazy. Haha. But, I like talking to God. I should probably do it a little more often. When I do end up talking to him, I get this almost tingling feeling and everything feels alright. I talked to him about missions and Katie and my family and all the good Friday junk. It was a good talk. I just feel so much peace and joy lately and I guess that is mostly due to where God has placed me in life. Allowing me to have the family I do and allowing me to have randomly met Katie and allowing me to have the heart I do for hurting people and placing certain friends in my path... those are things that a lot of people don't get to experience. And those are the things that I am most thankful for. Life is tough sometimes, but ultimately life is good.

So, today was eventful and I got to think about life and I got to enjoy a lot of different aspects of it. That always makes for a good day.